Hola!
First of all, I would like to say thank you to everyone who has sent me letters and packages!!!!! They make me so happy! Thank you so much for your thoughtfulness and generosity! I appreciate you so much! :) I'm so sorry, I wish I had time to thank everyone individually, but there just isn't enough time. And I feel so bad, so even if I don't thank you personally, know that I am so grateful for what you have sent me and for your kindness! I am SO blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life.
So, I'll start off with a cool spiritual experience I had this week. We had to teach our "investigator" (our teacher) the other day. I've been struggling to care about this investigator, because I know it's just my teacher. We're supposed to treat them just like a real investigator, but that is so hard for me because I know they're not. Anyway, I wasn't super excited for our lesson with him. Because we had struggled with our previous lessons with him, and we didn't feel like we were making much progress. I felt like I didn't prepare enough, or put enough effort into thinking about this lesson. Before we went to go teach him, I said a prayer with my companion. I remembered the story that Elder Holland referenced in his talk, "Lord, I Believe" about the father with the handicapped child in the Bible. He pleads with Christ for help, and He tells the Lord, "Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief."
So I prayed and asked the Lord to help me have faith. I think I told Him about the little, weak amount of faith I had for this lesson, and my minuscule desire to care about it. I wanted to care and have faith, but I just couldn't for some reason. So, in my prayer, I essentially told the same thing to the Lord as did the man in the Bible. My faith was very weak, but I had a little, and it was something. The lesson went so well for the first time!!!! And he actually connected with what we were saying and it had an impact on him! And I felt prompted to ask a question, also. Why do I ever doubt in the Lord? Sometimes, I feel that when my faith is weak, or if I haven't done enough, I can't ask for His help. But, we just have to put forth whatever faith we have, however small it may be, and He WILL bless us. I feel impressed to suggest you all read the conference talk "Lord, I Believe" by Elder Holland. I haven't read it for a while, and I started to read it this morning, and I remembered again what an amazing talk it is!
Another cool spiritual experience. Today we went to the Temple. I had a question about something, and I kept thinking about it. As I stood there thinking about it, a Temple worker turned and looked straight at me and explained what I had been questioning. It was absolutely amazing! There was no way he could have known what I was thinking because I hadn't said a word to him! There was no way this could have happened without him being prompted by the Spirit to tell me this! I continue to be amazed at how the Lord is so aware of us, even in the small details. He is aware even when we have a question. And He cares enough about our question to answer. It may not always be in a kind of miraculous way like I received my answer, but He always listens, and always sends us answers. We just have to have the faith to receive them and recognize them. Even if we only have a little faith.
It's so crazy I've been here for a month! It has seriously gone by SO fast! I'm so excited to go to Virginia! Everyone who we tell that we're going to Virginia says oh it's so pretty there! I can't wait.
I miss my family so much. And it's so wonderful just to think about being with you. I didn't realize what a sacrifice it was to leave your family and come on a mission until I actually came! I hope you are all doing well though. I love you and miss you all so, so, so, so, so, so much. It's lonely sometimes when I start getting homesick. But I have to remember that the Lord is always with me, and this next year and a half will be so worth it. I love you all so much. Please remember that, each and every one of you. I keep realizing more and more how incredibly and incomprehensibly blessed I am to have been raised in the Gospel by strong, faithful parents who have shown me so much love, supported me my whole life and have provided for everything that I've ever needed and wanted. And that I have 3 sweet sisters who I love. I'm starting to cry as I write this because I love you all so much. I have been blessed with such an incredible family. I know that nothing I ever do will make me deserving of my family, but I think what I'm doing right now is a small way I can show my gratitude to Heavenly Father. Because although it's so hard to be away from you all, I'll have the opportunity to help other families be together forever.
Well, have a great week everyone. Again, I'm so grateful for everything you have done for me and for all your prayers! I feel so loved!
Ether 12:12
Love,
Hermana Eddington
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