Hola!
What a week! There's so much, I don't even know where to begin.
Well, I guess I'll begin with what the Lord has been trying to teach me this week. Trust in Him. That's kinda been the theme. Again, I'm going to be real, it's been a little stressful. But, the Lord has been with me every step of the way. There are moments when I think I can't possibly do this, but He always reassures me that I can, one way or another. It's amazing. I have seen SO many tender mercies. I'm really learning what faith means. It means trusting that you can do seemingly impossible things with the help of our Heavenly Father and Savior. It's not easy, but you really just have to take a leap of faith, and Heavenly Father and His Son are right next to you, cheering you on.
That's what it has felt like for me. Sometimes I feel like Peter walking out to Jesus on the water. When I start to give into fear, I start sinking and I want to give up. But, my Savior and Heavenly Father are always there to reassure me, always. The assurance doesn't always come in a way that I want, or when I want it to, but it always comes and I'm so grateful.
Last night, it had been a crazy day, and I was overwhelmed. I started to doubt and I thought there wasn't anyway that I could possibly do this. I felt so inadequate. And I couldn't shake the feeling. I had been having the thought that I should ask for a Priesthood blessing, but I kind of waved it away. I started to read in the missionary handbook for stress management, and one of the suggestions was to ask for a Priesthood blessing. And then my companion just happened to look over at the book, pointed to the suggestion about the Priesthood blessing, and said, "Do you want one?" And I was like yeah... I've been having the thought that I should. And I started to feel really strongly that I should. So I asked for one. And it was just what I needed. Not exactly what I had expected, or wanted, but what I needed. And that night, I didn't feel the amount of stress that I had been feeling before. Miracle. I am so grateful for the Priesthood, and Priesthood blessings are so wonderful! If you are going through a difficult time, and need some extra guidance or comfort, please ask for one. Priesthood blessings are so comforting, and they can be a source of great strength. They can help you to have a renewed commitment. I love them.
So, I'm still learning, but I really need to trust more in the Lord. We can only see so much ahead of us, but He has an eternal perspective, and He sees everything. Everything we can do, and everything we can become. And everything that we need to experience that will shape us into that person He knows we can become. And a lot of times those experiences are difficult. It is by no means easy. But that is because what we are trying to achieve when we follow our Savior and Heavenly Father is so glorious and wonderful. It can't be easy. I've heard a quote that says, "There are no shortcuts to anywhere worth going." Truth.
I've found many wonderful, comforting scriptures about trusting in the Lord and believing Him. If you want to look them up, here are some I've found: 2 Nephi 21:2 (Isaiah 26: 3-4), 1 Nephi 3:31 through 1 Nephi 4:1-6.
I have felt the peace of the Savior so much this week! It has been incredible. Peace is the best feeling in the world. Every time I think there is no way I can do what God expects of me, He reassures me I can. I still don't know how it will all happen, but I know that I just have to move forward with faith, and He will lead me along. I am so grateful for His infinite love and mercy. The words of the hymn, "Praise to the Lord, The Almighty" express how I feel.
So, now about other things. An Elder and a Hermana from my district left :( Their visas for Spain came. They were both scheduled to leave for the Spain MTC on the same day, but then something happened with Hermana Spencer's visa or passport or something. So they told her she would just stay here for the rest of her MTC time. So we were all sad about her leaving and then we were so relieved when we found out she was staying! And then yesterday, she got called into the travel office and she came back and said, "I'm leaving in 2 hours!" So she had to pack up everything and two hours later, she was gone. It was crazy!
Also, one of the districts in my zone left this week. On Sunday after church, as a Branch, we sang "God Be With You 'Til We Meet Again" en Español. It was amazing! That song in Spanish is just incredible. I could really feel the Spirit!
Also, speaking of my Branch, my Branch President is awesome! He is seriously so awesome. He has such a great personality, and I just love Him! And his wife is so sweet! They are the best.
Sorry this was so long. I love this work, I love the Lord, and I'm so grateful for the peace that He has given me! I know this is His Gospel and His work. Even though it's difficult, and trying, it is the best, and I'm grateful to have so many wonderful people around me.
Thanks for your letters, love, prayers and support!
Hasta Luego,
Hermana Eddington
Hermana Eddington
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